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Yea. That idea of mine was pretty stupid.


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How did I get myself into this stupidity?
Now, thats the question to ask!
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"Do you think we r playing wow all the time... because we are avoiding something?"

Yeah... I know I'm avoiding...

I am trying hard to minimize my interaction with some disrespectful beings...


sigh..
just when will I learn how to care less?

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Now that I can conclude.

I should log back into the World of RealWorld...
play with my almost level 21 Cal Student who has just made into SoComm and become a student assistant of Professor Peng (The Chinese Freud).

Her quest log is almost full... and maybe she should start clearing the Reading Assignments out before she gets to the Big Boss- Exam!

Wisdom from the South African whom I would never meet.

People changes, places changes...


"Miss me, but don't miss me too much!"

A Game that Consumes Minds

People fascinate me!

What can I say...


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A fantastical digital world that becomes a casual social niche of many individual minds.

Though the bonds exist among these minds are often temporary, the among of time each mind committed themselves to the tasks assigned by the game is rather significate.


Generally, bonds and partnerships among us form in order to achieve certain goals.
Short-term goals lend to temporary relationships; long-term goals lend to more enduring relationships. Examples of short-term goals would be: slay a dragon in couple hours, get a key in one night, and collect runeclothes when the main raid group does not want you; long-term goals would include: become dragon slaying partners every monday night, become reputation farming buddies every wednesday and friday night, maybe even dinner-eating mates, hang-out friends (in real life)!

In WOW, generally speaking, there are only short-term to semi-long-term goals.

But yet, I have met a handful of interesting characters (beautiful diction here! double meanings!) whom I would be much interested in establishing some longer-term goals with.






That's a very queer idea.
Certainly odd, but that isn't completely unreasonable nor illogical.






This silly little passion.

I was once told,
"If you fall for your strangest desire, you will feel silly at the end."




Is it strange?
Now, that's the question to ask!


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Is it strange to you guys?


I believe they would think so... LOL! At least at this point!




"Nothing is either good or bad, but thinking makes it so..."
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A Storm in my Mind

It's a pity.
...It truly is.







"Nothing is either good or bad, but thinking makes it so."


I care more than I should.

loyality

i used to live by that word.








It was high school. I loved a friend very dearly.



Then, it never happens again.

Note to myself

"dont be too vulgar."



"You are very... blunt!"

Paranoia

I have a bad habit- Worry.

I make mistakes too, like all of you.
But, I worry after I've made a mistake... for a little bit too long... and, therefore, impair my problem solving skill.


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Anxiety?
: )

Flirtation

" You are mean... Stop teasing them with something they cannot get!"


This got me thinking just a little bit too much for just a little bit.

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The 1st person who break this news to me...
disappointed me a little bit.

I used to think of him as an attractive being.
Then, I realize those were all "flirtings" and "social skills."

Thanks to him tho,
I learned those "skills" from him.

oh no's

"If you fall for your strangest desire, you will feel silly at the end."


Shit!

Important Reminders:

"If you fall for your strangest desire, you will feel silly at the end."


"It's not the Clever Mind that's responsible when things work out. It's the mind that sees what's in front of it, and follows the nature of things." -Tao

My Passionate Love for SoComm

Our Dear Ethan,

Though I have interviewed 3 committees: SoComm, PR, and Hist. , my LOVE for Socomm is far more passionate than the other wonderful committees. : P

After reading your last email, I cannot help to be a little bit paranoid.
To ease this little worry, I decided to write you another email : P

Knowing that I was one of the earilest interviewees (which might put me into a slight disadvantage... according to a psychology article that i've just read few days ago!!!),
I would also like to attach this mini informal resume to refresh refresh myself.

->->->About Little Sharon~ : D
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Strength:

***SHORT- so people will remember me.
***TALKATIVE- I consider myself to be a relatively interesting person to talk to. I can talk to almost anyone, any type of people. I am easy to apporach. I know how to make people feel comfortable.
***LOUD- I was a section leader in my high school show choir, where we all learned to speak up loudly and confidently.
***LIGHT WORK LOAD this semester! only 13 units!

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Weakness:

Short- sometimes people do not see me. But I know WAYS to get attention.
Too Talkative sometimes.
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What I would like to GAIN from the leader:

I would like(/love) to sharpen my social skill and leadership.and believe trufully that SoComm would be the BEST Committee for me to gain these.

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Other Highlights:

"It's Cold~! Let's play Twister! :D "

I was voted to be the Outstanding Senior due to my leadership in my show choir.

I am also a good team player.
I know well when to be a leader, and when to be a player.

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Thank you for your patience, understanding, and your time spent reading this little "resume!"

Sincerely,
Your little loud froggie,
SharonH.

Contact #:(626) 272 1***


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Hi Sharon,
First things first . . . .HAHAHAHAH!!!
You're freaking hilarious I swear.Don't worry about a thing.
The earlier interviews stick out in my mind just as much as any others. I wrote that e-mail as a precautionary measure because a lot of people applies ONLY to SoComm, which isn't a good thing because then some of them wouldn't get on a committee.

While I can't tell you what committee you'll be on . . . I can tell you to not worry about it at all ; )Thanks for the resume, but it wasn't needed, my interviews let me see everything that I need to see. After all, the AAA committee experience is more about learning and changing to a position rather than having a certain set of skills.

Once again, you'll hear from me Monday night.
Until then, just relax and enjoy the rest of the weekend.

-Ethan

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ginormous Ethan,

:..D
Hap..Hap.. Happy Chinese New Year! *happy tears*

tiny,
Sharon

What's Behind the Screen and the Voices on Ventrio?

I cannot help but wonder...

What's behind a smile on a face?

Human Social Interaction is the topic.


this is not all a simple subject...
or else, y psychology? y sociology?


Meeting someone new...
all on our own...
umm like in a school club w/o anyone there to introduce us.

1st, we want to look attractive to draw other people's interest upon us.
afterall, we human ARE vision animals.
what is on the outside tells our brains a lot about whats in the inside.
no, its not "shallow." we are JUST biologically, geneticaly GEARED to react that way!
2nd, we want to sound familiar to the others, make them feel comfortable.
generally, people tend to be more attracted to familiarity rather than uncertainity.
and nobody would be attracted to someone who makes them feel uncomfortable.
3rd, we want to leave them a good impression, so there will be a next time.
the power of first impression!




I dunno.
thats just what pop in my head after going to a big club meeting.


People make me think. make me paranoid.


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so that was for people in RL.

then lets talk about WOW ppl. LOL


ppl on wow.
when u meet friends in a game like wow... its no-shittly much less complicated!

u dont like someone?
u /ignore him
u like someone?
u /friend them, /ginvite them.

people up in the game ALREADY share the same passion with you - the game!

the reason why you want to be friends with someone would be MUCH less complicated than the reaons why you would want to be friends with someone in Real Life!

on wow, u become friends with them coz u want them to raid with u, slay a dragon with u.
in real life, u become friends with them coz u want to get laid, meet more people thru them, find your soul mate, gain more social power, get connections... etcetc.


For wow. once u reach LvL 60.. a raid could take up to 6 hours.
many wowers play everyday.
spend much time in a fictional world.
a world where everyone looks either funny/attractive.
"physical" appearance in that world does not matter.


once "appearance" is not a factor anymore...
people's "in group/out group" section becomes much less complicated, in my opinion:

as long as u "learn to play."
people like you.


In RL,
well.. i guess
as long as you "learn to play" ur soical game
people like you too

but.. the "learn to" is much harder than wow.. where thotbot.com is soo handy!

Important Reminder

People are dimensional.

My Analogy: People vs. Magazines

Some after thoughts after rereading my last post:

There are different types of Magazines:
TeenVouge, Us, Discover, National Geo, Psychology Today, Playboy, Penthouse, etcetc


There are different types of People:
Fashionable teens, Gossipers, Interesting Science Fans*, Travelling friends who love to take pictures and tell you about their trips, friends who love to analyze other friends and tell you their theories of why this girl date that guy, friends who dress half-nakedly, friends who would just "perform" at a party or anywhere, drunk or awake, etcetc


*(sigh.. y do we call them nerds like its a bad thing... who invented the most marvelous wonders: tiny cell fones, light-weight laptops, good games like WOW... etcetc?!? and we repay them by stigmatize them?)


"Can't judge a Book from it's cover."

Well... Magazines are different from Books.
We CAN judge a magazine from it's cover!



Huh~ What about people?
We DO can tell a lot from their outfit, hairstyle, carryings!


Interesting huh~?

Something Weird, Something Fascinating...

Ever since a kid, I have always been interested in Science, religions, stories from the grown-ups... anything that maybe answers to my questions:

Why do birds fly?
Why does the seawater taste salty?


I have always been curious. So, I ask a lot of questions.


Discovery Channel is my fav.
National Geo is my magazine.

When I watch those TV shows, read those magazines, I feel... "happy." like... you would feel good about a show, an article, after a show, an article...

I watch a lotta VH1, E!... Top Models, Next, Pimp my Ride... etc etc. Read a lotta TeenVouge, Steventeen, ELLE... etcetc too. But, the after feeling is never the same.


Much like people.
They are fun and all. But... they r like Top Models... fun and all. much psychology. much sociology in there! But... not the type that would make you grow, find a peace of mind there...
I tend to feel disgusted, object-oriented, unsatisfying... sometimes stupid after those shows.



I feel restless around people sometimes.
Most likely due to my paranoida.

yay.... wake up to a sore throat... AGAIN

People whom I should have invested in, spent more time with, awww...


It's ok. It's ok. I was not ready back then.



Don't miss out anymore!

1.) Join clubs. Meet people.
2.) "Being passive is being aggressive sometimes."
3.) "Dont be paranoid!"

Acne Mystery Solved

*Before Dorming *After Dorming, and believe me. my face has gotten worse


... Fattening Diet, Lack of exercise, higher level of stress... were persumed to be the cause of that...

NO! It is just simply the fucking damn dusty room!

Over the winter, I have NOT been eating any healther, walk more, less stress!
BUT I HAVE NOT A SINGLE FUCKING BREAK OUT!


WHAT DA FUCK?!

I HAVE ONLY BEEN IN THIS ROOM FOR SHORTLY FUCKING 2 DAYS

I HAVE FUCKING 2 PIMPLES ALREADY!

the RA doesnt seem to believe me on "ur vaccum from the 70's doesnt seem to work."

I AM THE ONLY WORKING VACCUM MACHINE IN THE ROOM!

everday everynight, I breathe in dust.
everymorning, I have a sore throat... i m not shitting you


I always thought its because I have sensitive nose...


NO! I DIDNT HAVE THAT PROBLEM WHEN I WAS BACK IN ARCADIA!



I NEED TO MOVE OUT!

I cannot stand seeing my face going anymore crowded with red dots...
and wake up with sore throats


i really want to cry

Go Bears!

Now I m here! I m back to the ghetto.
I should really try for a 4.0 this semester.

Join Badminton Club too!


Take better care of my appearance.

stop buying things i dont NEED need.
promise to WEAR all the jewelries, clothes I've bought over the break.

Don't forget about my website too!

umm, learn to master my emotions
sharpen my ppl skill

Going Back to Cal

Well, I think mom is a little bit mean. She went back to HK 70% of the time when I m down here at so-cal! I am going back tomorrow, and she is still in China : /

Oh wells, coz of this, it makes me wanna come back down for Chinese New Year more!




Going back to Cal.

My dorm is so cramped! So tiny! So dusty...
Fosho, we will need to go buy a shark.
but fosho, I would not wanna buy it myself... coz everyone will abuse it.

I will talk to my RA and get her to use the RA $ for one.



Coz my mom took all the big suitcases.
I only have 1 small one.
All the rest, I use trash bags and GWF carton boxes.

I have soo many crap!


Noteablely, I am bringing Jon's mini TV back up too! So I can play PS2. Cant wait till I rearrange the funiture and play the PS2.

sigh... But I do miss mom.

argh!

BURNING FIRE!

this is amazing

I am 4 feet 9 inches, 20-year-old.


HOWEVER!

I live in a 3 bdrm, 3 1/2 bathrm, 2 living rm, 1 1/2 dinning rm house with 2 car garage, 1 guest house and 1 pool.

I drive a good car. My family drives good cars.

I carry tho not the latest trendiest purses and wallets, they are nice.

I go to UC berkeley.

My family are not drug dealers.

Parents are still happily married with us.

My 22 uncles and aunties are tho not all alive, they are friendly and loving with each other.

I also have 14 bright cousins.

I have a 5-yr-old Siberian Husky, a 3-yr-old long lasting entertaining enriching fantastic relationship with Jonathan Chao and his family.

I have a brother who will lend me 100 dollar when I overdrafted.

I have enough $ in my bank account.

I do not work but only have to study... or survive with minimum effort.






I know my life might not be as fabulous as Paris Hilton's... or maybe mine is, in fact, better than hers in ways... ha!

Anyways,
I am just pressure to be successful, more successful than most people due to all these advantage.

Ha~ tho my height (which is a biggie) put me in disadvantage.

I guess my height balance everything out! :P


NO no NO no!
my main pt in this post is:

I BETTER WORK HARDER THAN THIS N PROVE THAT I M WORTH IT!

Frenshit

Prop to myself for getting over issues that have always been bugging me.

I am ready to move on!

I moved on!

not maybe. this is fosho. i m doing it!

What a coincidence! As I have been day-dreaming about starting an online ladies shoe store lately, Jon's dad is actually starting a web-base business! He has all the software, knowledge that I need and want to know. All I need now is some market research, do some math, figure out a good business plan... I am SO EXCITED!

This will be a long project!
This ought to be done!