Saturday, December 31, 2005
Friday, December 30, 2005
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Monday, December 26, 2005
My Philosophy of Friends; what really happened.
((Friend)) was not a frequently used word in my dictionary.
Drama happened. Drama happens.
I tried so hard to avoid dramas by weeding out the persumed "bad" friends.
I did not bother to waste time on getting to know a "bad" person.
I learned to be very judgmental.
I learned to expect the worst out of people.
People. I love them. But, I was scared of them.
I have always been very sensitive.
I have always been attached.
I have always had issue!
Girls? I fear them. I avoid female friends.
Somehow, I think they are all the same...
They are political. They gossip. They are harmful.
Guys? I hang out with guys.
I would waste time on getting to know bad guys, but, not girls, never the good girls.
Cal housing put me in an all girl suite.
They made a wonderful mistake!
Living with seven of them,
I found out girls are actually fucking more fun to be around with!
Yeah, they gossip. So? I gossip too! I am political too!
Am I harmful to some? Yeah... So why placing this double standard?
During high school, I withdrew for the previously mentioned reasons; I learned jack.
My social life @ PCC taught me friends are not necessarily close.
Even tho they might hurt me, I will still gain ultimately.
There should not be a pressure on "weeding out" the bad apples...
People are dynamic with dimensions.
It is better to learn than to judge.
It is better to make it the most than to make it the least.
It is much easier when we do not care.
Why care?
Why fear?
I have survived the "worst."
What "worst" would come to me who was the loner, the bullyed, the betrayed, the outcasted?
Have I also forgotten I was also the star, the bully, the center of the universe???
Have I never betrayed?
I had my best times with those who hurt me the most.
I hate them. But Why?
They have taught me much.
Those who failed me do not fail me now.
People are dynamic with dimensions.
I snipped outta it already.
"This is not physical science, get over it!
- Professor Zedeck, his comment on the study of Psychology
Now, I long for the life I have missed.
And I am after what I have missed, what I miss.
Sunday, December 25, 2005
Sunday, December 18, 2005
Charming Little Pond
All on the surface of a shallow pond.
My tears in there goes no where.
So calm, So SMOOTH, So pretty.
Shallow but seemed pretty clear.
Charming little twinkle pond.
Mellow little shallow pond.
Flawless little charming pond.
Nothing but shit dipped in shit.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Monday, December 12, 2005
Zedeck's Veggie on Handling STRESSSSSSSsss!
When handling stress, we can use the Mental Monolog method, which is aka the Constrictive Self-Talk method. Instead of telling ourselves: "OMFFFG! I can never finish this! I am Doomed!", we tell ourselves: "This oughts to be completed! I do not have much time, but I should try! I will be OK."
Zedeck, Zedeck, Zedeck!
Saturday, December 10, 2005
Pimples >: [
Phew... and I wonder WHY I am having acne problems?!
Despite my room being sunless and dusty, I skip my beauty sleeps now from time to time for WOW/last min studying!
Rich Dad, Poor Dad
"It's words."
"It's the mind set."
"Poor person would say, ' I will never be able to afford it!'"
"But, the Rich person would ask, 'How can I afford it?'"
Wednesday, December 07, 2005
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
TKD club and Fashion club/ Business and Psychology
very different from one another. the people whom I will meet will be very different from one another too!
Attractive People
ummmm...
They are fun to hang out with and all... But why do they have to get complicated...?
Am I asking for too much in people?
I am looking for...
Someone loves to shop and dress themselves up pretty, is mean enough to make some funny mean jokes but not mean enough to hurt the others either behind or up front... mature and respectful at the same time?
Someone whom I can have some sophisticated conversation with?
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Monday, December 05, 2005
About People, again.
Since when we have realized that we cannot tell everyone about our problems?
Simply just talk about them would cost you a lot in terms of losing people to hang out with. Not everyone has to worry about our problems. Only those who decide to care about us would "have to" listen. People only make this choice when we attract them, charm them enough to make them be attached; then our problem would become THEIR problems too: our well-being has effects on them!

